All posts filed under: Musings

Currently | May Edition

Researching: on the styles I would want for our new house. There are too many things that I love, but I know it wouldn’t be practical for my place. Planning: for my upcoming trip to Japan with my family. I’m feeling a little nervous as it’s been almost 8 years since I’ve traveled with them. My traveling styles has changed greatly since I was a teenager and that makes me nervous, especially when my father is often critical of my choices. Coping: with jetlag and the humidity after the glorious sunshine & cooling weather in London. The 25 degrees Celsius change in temperature has really made my body scream in horror. Celebrating: B’s very first business trip with his new company, and it goes without saying, I tagged along and made a trip out of it. I am really happy to have met some of the people he works with and I do like them quite a fair bit. Loving: the wonderful time that I’ve had in the UK on my own, wandering through the streets of various …

Currently | April Edition

Listening: Shape of You – Ed Sheeran. I love this song, the beats are great to dance to and it is a great pick me up in the morning. When I need to just perk up a little, I’d just blast this on my earphones and pick up pace. Watching: 13 Reasons Why. If you’ve not watched this Netflix series, you should. It really makes you reflect on the choices you’ve made, and you can’t help but wonder if you are still making those mistakes.  Celebrating: our first wedding anniversary and B’s birthday at Siem Reap. It’s a great change of scenery for celebrations, one that is filled with loads of cheap massages, alcohol and lazing around. Reading: Paper Princess – Erin Watt. When you’ve read most books and nothing much interests you, this book would be great if you love cruel intentions. The twists might be really obvious, but it’s a relatively well written novel. Coping: with being an asthmatic after more than 20 years without it. It means no more traveling without an …

The Twenty Sixth

“I must have flowers, always, and always.” – Claude Monet It was March the Twenty-Sixth. Six years ago, we had one of our last meals with my mum. I woke up suddenly, after snoozing my alarm, grabbed my phone only to see 3 missed calls and 10 messages from my aunt. I grabbed my clothes, washed up and made a dash for the bus stop. Close to ten minutes later, my aunt pulls up to the curb and I hopped in. It feels like any other weekend. We pulled up at our family home, my aunt quickly dashed into the house and proceeded to hustle everyone out of their jammies and breakfast. “Quickly, we are running late. Your dad is almost on his way” says my aunt. As I sat in the car watching everyone scramble to the car, I wondered, How can it be six years already? And why does this feel so normal? After a good 10 minutes, everyone piled into the car, and we are off. As we drove down the road that leads into the …

Currently: Feb Edition

Listening: Music from La La Land and other renditions of the songs from the album. Honestly, music helps to lift my spirits when I think about the tough work day I am about to deal with. My latest favourite rendition is an advanced jazz cover, and I am totally in love. Watching: Riverdale! OMG, watching my favourite comic in a totally different medium has became my latest obsession. Not forgetting my all time favourite, Grey’s Anatomy. Reading: The Queen of Tearling by Erika Johansen. I’ve always been a huge fan of magical and fantasy books. This book is a great read, as is Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard. However, if you’ve read books by Terry Brooks or Raymond E. Feist, these would not be able to match up to their well developed writing styles. Amazed: by the beautiful wedding at the S.E.A Aquarium. Having the fishes swim around while dinner was served is truly a treat. Looking: to restart Yoga classes. Since I changed jobs, I’ve really neglected my health a fair bit and when I chanced upon …

La La Land

https://youtu.be/HvCcbkgC15s “Here’s to the ones who dream Foolish, as they may seem Here’s to the hearts that ache Here’s to the mess we make” When I watch a movie, I usually do minimal research and try to avoid reviews. I try not to form a certain impression of a movie, and I fear nothing more than spoilers. So when I caught “La La Land” a couple of weeks ago, I was honestly surprised to learn that it was a musical just moments before the movie started. Throughout the movie, I found myself tapping along with the music and being captivated by the beautifully composed music. Emma Stone, oh boy, where do I even start with her? Who knew that her chemistry with Ryan Gosling would be so awesome? Also, Ryan had me mesmerized by his piano skills. For someone who doesn’t play the piano to pick up skills and be convincing over the duration of a film is truly commendable. The film tells a lot of truths about romantic relationships. There are always a million …

The Solitude in Words

The rays of the golden hour gently warming up my skin, frosted from the wintery cold of the office, as I strolled towards the nearest train station. Guilty of the act of simply scrolling through my social media channels, I took the chance to look up from my screen to take in the urban landscape before me. Jazz music playing softly through my earphones as I stumbled through the crowds across 2 varying train lines to make my way back to home. It’s been a tough couple of months at work, and my spirits has been really worn thin. The shroud of negative energy from my team rubs off easily on me and all I could do was seek solace in words. Words I’ve written years ago when I was equally worn out, they proved to be a timely reminder that things would eventually get better once we are well adjusted. “If you’re feeling frightened about what comes next, don’t be. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges …

Table Conversations

Earlier this month, the “stars” aligned and I’ve finally managed to catch up with 2 of my closest friends from University – Aloy & YL. Over coffee, we talked about everything under the sun – well, almost. Plato, Socrates, gossips (not really) about where some of our course-mates went, our Professors and some impressionable topics that they taught. Upon returning home, I kept thinking about those conversations that we had. It occurred to me that it was probably the most intellectual conversation that I’ve had with my friends in a long time. It has always been about mindless things and I hardly get anything meaningful from it. The differences between my friends are drastically different. In example, lunch with XT would be mindless conversations about spending crazy amounts of money on houses, food and our little monsters (i.e her nephews and my step-brother). Perhaps for many, that is a meaningful conversation, but for it, it feels empty. Ohh, it’s such a shame… That we don’t talk anymore. We don’t talk anymore, like we used to do. …