To the one who used to know my secrets, A
How have you been? I’ve heard that you’ve landed a job that you love and got the promotion that you’ve longed for. While you’ve landed your dream job, I still wish you the best for all the other areas in your life that I know means the world to you. I still wish you the best, I still hope that you’d find a man who is worthy of your love. Someone that would travel the world with you, one who loves to have tea, to watch movies with you and to grow old with you. I hope you are happy where you are not and that you’ve had everything you’ve ever wanted. And I hope you’ve found someone who was a better friend and fit into the direction your life was taking you than I was.
It’s been 4 years since we parted ways at the airport where you stomped out of my life and never looked back. I’m sorry that it happened and should you still habour any ill towards me, do know that I have none for you, and I’m really sorry that I wasn’t aware of the things I said that drove us to this state. We grew up and made it through polytechnic together, and we grew apart, it happens and I know it’s just a part of life. I don’t blame you for walking away, it’s just that I get really sad when I’m full of nostalgia and can’t tell you how I feel and say “do you remember when…”
When we meet someone, that person would either serve as a lifelong bond or a lesson, and you were the latter. This lesson was a heartbreaking one for me, and in all honesty, I wished it turned out to be a lifelong bond. Those memories we’ve created, they serve as a lesson that I’ll never forget. Should there be a day when I have my own children, I do want to share the stories of our glory days. You’ve not been erased just because you’re no longer a part of my life.
Thank you for all the valuable advice you’ve given me, the times when you tried to cheer me up when I was down, the time we spent together, and most importantly, for helping me discover who I was. I’m sorry that we’ve became incompatible over the years, but I’m no longer sorry that the journey we took brought us to this sorry conclusion.
I still miss you and I still hope that one day we would find our way back to each other down the road. The doors will always be open to you, but I’m sorry that I need to stop trying hard to make it up to you. You’ve seen me when I ugly cry, my nasty breakup with R, we’ve been through things that there was no going back from, and this means you will always be welcomed back into my life with open arms.
Perhaps one day, I will bump into you on the streets and all will be forgiven, and we can start being friends again. I’ve accepted that this might never happen considering all the history I’ve seen with your ex-best friends, but I do want you to know that you’d never be insulted or belittled should you decide to come back into my life.
So, I do look forward to following your progress through social media, and all the tidbits from mutual friends. I do hope that one day your kids would hear stories about me and know that we had a bond that had endured adventures, and I hope that you would tell them kind things about me and us our friendship as a lesson where some friends are forever, and some aren’t, and know that there isn’t anything wrong with that.
I wish nothing but the best for you, and I hope you’ve found some other amazing best friends like I did.
The girl who used to be in all your pictures, S